Another new recipe up: Chunky Ham and String Bean Soup. As you can tell, I am doing a lot of cooking these days, and not much else. In other news, it snowed last night! Just a couple of inches, but enough for a 2-hour delay. Cheers for a leisurely morning!!
Archive for February, 2011
Two new recipes up — again, one that I just made, and one that I’ve been meaning to upload for a while. Enjoy!
- Tortilla Casserole, which we had for dinner last night.
- Cocoa Brownies, which is one of my long-time staple recipes. I wanted to share this with someone last week and was surprised that it wasn’t already up on my site.
Oh look, it’s been 9 days since I last blogged. Yes, Anth has mentioned it to me repeatedly, as if I were perhaps not aware of my dereliction of duty. (I am reminded of this, which is something I’ve, heh, been meaning to blog for quite some time. Still not sure if this concept is truly liberating, or a self-delusional cop-out.) Since I’ve recently been blogging weakly, perhaps I should just commit (for now) to blogging weekly. Ha ha ha. Oh, how we did laugh. *sigh*
So what’s been up? Whole lotta same, pretty much. I’m still feeling head-swimmy and overwhelmed; my schedule is still not the way I want it to be; I’m still stressed out about money and the school. Big changes are afoot for next year at the school, and everything (everything) is up in the air right now. I don’t deal well with uncertainty, as you may have noticed. There’s a big important meeting this week which may provide some clarity, and/or stress me out much more.
I did Get Some Things Done this week, most notably groceries: I planned 2-3 weeks’ worth of meals, made a hyper-organized shopping list, spent two hours and $300 at the store, and now we’ve got a house full of food and a really good idea of how we’re going to eat it all. I’d been playing the eating down the fridge” game for most of 2011, and it was wearing a little thin. That game is fun because of the puzzle — figuring out what to make with what’s on hand. But the flip side of that — repeatedly needing to solve a goddamn puzzle before we can eat dinner — starts to wear on me after a while. Sometimes I just wanna eat, y’know? So then we just grab snacks (which leaves everyone cranky and unfulfilled) or we get take-out (which leaves our bank account cranky and unfulfilled). We should be good until well into March with what’s in the house now, and most of the meals I planned are new recipes to try. Expect at least a few of them to be posted, assuming that they don’t all turn out to be duds.
Also last week, I got my routine mammogram, which was normal, yay! It’s always a relief to get that done… Oh, and Alice cut my hair, which is a huge relief, as well, in its own non-life-threatening way. Now that I’m used to my very very short cut, I really can’t stand the way it feels when my hair gets much more than 2″ long — it’s very hot and heavy and just *ugh*. Now it’s freshly back down to 1″ all over. Alice does a really great job on it!!!
Okay, I want to post some pictures, but I think I’ll do that as a separate post. But see? I blogged! See??
Anth says, “you never blog any more,” and he’s right, I don’t. Facebook sucks up some of my little mini-updates, but I really don’t talk that much on Facebook either. Mostly I don’t blog because I can’t find the time and energy to even think about it. Between the holidays and the recurring bad weather, I don’t think there’s been a week since mid-December that was “normal”, i.e. where the kids go to school on all of their normal days and Anth works from home on his normal days and everything happens on the normal schedule.
I’m finding that, without that dependable rhythm to my time, my mental to-do list twists and lumps up on itself like undercooked spaghetti. If I’m doing something, I’m doing it while feeling stressed and harried because all I can think about is all of the other things I need to be doing. If I’m not doing anything, I can’t figure out how to start on something because I can’t prioritize the things that need to get done. I end up spinning my wheels, hyperventilating and snapping at the kids.
The weather has been ridiculous. We haven’t had it as bad as some of the places on the news, but it’s been bad enough. School, work, and ballet schedules have been altered. I had to cancel a gathering of friends at my house this week solely because there was absolutely no place for them to put their cars; our driveway is shoveled out exactly one car’s-width, and there’s no longer a shoulder on our road.
The snow has bitten us in other ways, too. Alice was goofing around on a sled yesterday after school, trying to see if she could slide down our hill on top of the ice-crusted snow or if she would sink through the crust and stall. Turns out she could slide pretty well; her first two runs were fast but erratic, full of veering left turns and counter-intuitive lateral slides. Her third try was not the charm; she lost control, fell off the sled, and hit the icy snow face- and hands-first. She came up bleeding from dozens of cuts and scratches. Her wrists, chin, and nose got the worst of it. Today she’s wearing a cunning assortment of Band-Aids.
So that’s what’s stressing Alice out today. What’s stressing me out is money. At Alice’s mid-year conference, we started talking about high school(!!!) and what that will look like for Alice next year(!!!). It’s really exciting and cool, but she’ll get the most out of it if she could go 5 days/week instead of 4. The problem is how to pay for that 5th day. Basically, I kind of need to find an extra $500/month in the budget, starting in July. Getting “a real job” is not an ideal situation, even if such a thing could be found in this sucky economy, because I need to be flexible and available for the kids on sick days, snow days, summer break, etc. If anyone has any ideas or leads for me, or if anyone is willing to pay me (even a little) to do something for them on a regular basis, let me know. *sigh*
In the interests of ending on a positive note, I just finally really realized that my library has a whole lot of CDs available for free lending. I knew that they had music available, but I never really dove in. Now I’m realizing that I can check out all of those bands that everyone says are cool, and those guys that do that one song I really like and maybe I should see what else they do, and I can try them out for 3 weeks for no charge. I love my library so much, sometimes I feel guilty that I don’t pay (directly) for any of the wonderfulness they provide. Heh.